Is "green shoots" the term they use in the very beginning stage of an economic recovery? If it is, then we may have seen some green shoots today. Myla's feedings are down to 50% total at this point in time. This alone is very scary. Today, she definitely showed signs of hunger and definitely let us know about it. She was not very much into breakfast. We feel the constant struggle of trying to feed her a meal at "meal time" and following her lead. We should know by now that feeding her a meal just because its time, does not work as well. Following a poor showing at breakfast time by MJ, I sat her on the couch next to me as I finished my cream of wheat. She showed some interest in what I was eating, so I let her have some of my breakfast which she took willingly from my spoon. Then she took another and then another spoon full and she swallowed it. As the day went on, Myla got fussy and Lindsey and I are trying to relearn the difference between her sleepy fussiness and her hungry fussiness. We haven't really seen her hungry fussiness since Lindsey was breastfeeding. As soon as we were told we needed to ensure that Myla received 24 ounces in 24 hours and to offer her a bottle every 2 hours, there went any chance of following her cues. She was fussy because she was tired. She napped. Following her nap, we did a play picnic. This time, we were wise enough to let Myla play in just her diaper. She played with and ate rice crispies, ketchup, mustard, yogurt, ranch dressing, apple slices, cantaloupe, and probably other foods that I am not remembering. She did great and had fun. The highlight of this play picnic was when she offered me her hand that was covered in a combination of rice crispies and ketchup. I had to model appropriate eating behavior, and now that taste will never leave my palette.
Following this, we bathed her and sat her down for her first tube feeding of the day. I sat next to her and ate my sandwich next to her. She reached for my sandwich, so I pulled off small pieces of bread and fed them to her. She then reached for my Cheetos (a bit embarrassed that I eat Cheetos) and she loved them. She loves crunchy food and she loves food that she can feed herself. She's an independent lady. We also discovered that Myla can drink from a straw! It takes a lot of time and work, but she can do it. I would estimate that she took close 4 ounces from a straw today. Thats huge for us.
Tonight we had another Skype session with Dr. Markus Wilken. He thinks we should pull the tube as soon as possible. I initially proposed that we would pull the tube this weekend, because I would be home with her all day. Dr. Wilken said that to avoid a bigger weight loss, we should pull the tube sooner, because our starting point will be a higher rather than waiting another 4 days of gradual weight loss and then taking the tube out. All of this is incredibly nerve racking and terrifying, but we believe in our Bean. She can do this. She will lose weight, but that is short term and in return we can have an autonomous eater. Pray for us and our baby. Pray for hunger and pray for Myla to discover the answer for that hunger.
I am going to take the day from work tomorrow, but we are hoping for visitors during the day on Wednesday, so let us know if you can spend time with Lindsey. Thanks.
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